I am a dizzy spell...

I am so not in the mood to work right now. I don't know if it's because I'm still feeling a little sick, bored, just being lazy, or if i'm also just burnt out as far as work is concerned...whatever the case...here I am...writing...I've read blogs, i've looked at pictures, I even walked around for a bit...i'd nap, but eh, I don't really feel like it...

It's been a week already since I last posted...since then, we celebrated London's b-day, ran the Run Hit Remix, beeb and I went to the Macy's/Amex Passport 2006 auction and fashion show...it was great. Saw some celebs...Sharon Stone, Brooke Shields, P Diddy, Jimmy somethin, i forget his last name, but he was in Star Wars and in NYPD Blue I think...oh yeah Liz Taylor too. It was the first fashion show i'd ever been too and I have to say it was an enjoyable experience...and I'm glad I got the chance to take beeb to one.

I don't really know what else to write right now...i'm in such a strange mood....

good weekend...

I am a game of phone tag...

I didn't do too bad on my 4 miler yesterday...4.2 miles in about 44 minutes...just a little over 10 min miles...i actually hit runner's high during the run...for like the first 2 miles, I was totally focused on the distance I had left to run and wanted to quit...but somewhere around 2.5 miles, I forgot about the distance altogether. I eventually ran a tad over 4? I wasn't too crazy tired either...so fortunately I am prepared for the Run Hit.

Gonna be a long weekend...i have to say, I'm a little anxious...

I am a new hope...

HAPPY 6th BIRTHDAY to the BUBSTER!!! Happy b-day lil buddy!!!! I can't believe you're six already, my gosh where is the time going?!?!

I was just talking about families w/ a few people today. And big weddings, small weddings, and such. It makes me a little sad that we have smaller and smaller families nowadays. I used to imagine myself further down the line as a grandparent and having one of those big family get-togethers...but when I look at the picture now, that family get-together isn't so big. I mean, most people have 1 or 2 kids nowadays, and even my own family...there's just me and my sis. Granted, we have a lot of family in the philippines...but even when I have a kid, she will only have one real cousin...unless London gets some more siblings. It's not like I failed in my goal to have a big family or anything, I think it's just not as realistic as I used to think it was...

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I still need to get in contact w/ Target's LP dept, so I can give them my old cc acct numbers and they can extract the cashier video feeds to turn into the police. I'm getting into like vigilante mode man, people at work wanna join, and lou wants to join in too, he he he, too bad they can't release the videos to us...argh.

gonna try to run a 4-miler tonight...wish me luck!

Lesson of the day
Never buy a car you can't push.

I am the longing for justice and truth...

So a quick update with my stolen wallet. All accts have been closed, fraud alert has been placed on my credit, contacted the FTC (Federal Trade Commission), filed a police report(which I still need to pick up), disputed any and all charges on my cc's and my wamu card. I requested a new DL and will need to go back w/ my police report in order to change my DL number. Needless to say, it's been quite a headache dealing with all this. I can't wait til it's all sorted out...

Life hasn't been all peaches and cream lately...in addition to the wallet being stolen, I've been dealing with other conflicts in my life, and then of course, events that happen in one's life that just put all of the little things into perspective... I found out last week that one of my old friends from back in the day lost his life tragically. He was so young, and it really was so unexpected, not like one expects this type of thing to happen, but really came out of the blue. The more I think about it, the sadder it makes me. It actually took a while for it to start sinking in, and I still don't think it has fully affected me. But the fact is, it does make all of my issues really trivial. I always hear that you shouldn't live your life for tomorrow, for tomorrow may never come...that is so true. Hard to always remember that, but when things like this happen, it just hits home... I remember reading jevon's blog about how death happens, sometimes so suddenly, sometimes so quickly, and I can't help but think about what thoughts may have been going through my friend's mind right before he left this world. Were his thoughts full of clarity? Or were things hazy? I wasn't really gonna mention it, but my friend took his life. Why? I have absolutely no idea...it really came out of left field and was a complete and utter shock to all of his friends and family. I get chills just thinking about it... LIke I said, I don't fully think it's hit me yet, and I don't really want to think about how I will be once it does... All I can do at this point is pray...I pray for my friend, for his family, for his friends, and for all of his loved ones...

It's kind of crazy to think of how life can be so full of ups and downs...just an hour ago, and intermittently every 15 minutes or so, I think about the dodger game last night...arguably one of the absolute greatest games in MLB history. Came back from 4 down to tie it up in the bottom of the 9th and then nomar hits a two run shot to win the game in the 10th...it was absolutely amazing. And then the next minute, I'm thinking about my friend...and I'm sad again...emotion can be such a roller coaster ride. Sometimes I feel guilty that I can get excited and happy during such a time, but then I realize, it's these happy times that help GET me through the tough ones. It's the smiles and the laughter and even the tears that pushes us through. It's important to look for the silver lining...always look for the silver lining...

"After the rain, the rainbow"

I am Mount Saint Helens...

To whom it may concern:

Thank you so much for stealing my wallet today and almost causing me to have a nervous breakdown. I hope you are enjoying all of the purchases you've made so far, I tried to stop you, but you'd managed to make over $1000 dollars in purchases...at first, I wanted someone to catch you and take you in, so I can meet face to face with you and smack you accross the face with a baseball bat...but I've decided to try to let it go..which quite honestly, I'm having a hard time dealing with. Simply because of the lengths with which you took to get to my wallet...it just shows your malicious intent to bring trouble into other people's lives. It's just material stuff you took from me, and I'm not physically hurt, and I'll get over it. I'm not worried about that. I just hope you get your just rewards. They might not catch you, but God knows what you did...and you'll get what's coming to you...you a-hole.

I am a minor dilemna...

Amazing how crippling fear can be isn't it? I can understand why that's what terrorists' main weapon is. While heating up my soup in the kitchen during lunch, I was just standing there and some coworkers were engaged in a conversation about traveling. One person was saying that there's the possibility of losing her passport and someone stealing her stuff, so it's safest just to not travel anywhere. Well, chaulk one up for fear. So scared about the possibility of trouble that it's not even worth it to travel at all...talk about trapped in a bubble...krikey.

Played softball in my work-league last night. We won our first game of the season! 15-4. I had a couple of hits and scored some runs, so it'll be awesome. It felt good to get a win in there.

I am a moment of silence...

Where were you?
5 years ago today? I still remember it like it was just a few days ago...I had just come back from Europe a few weeks before and I woke up at my San Remo apartment to Jos calling me and saying, "We're under attack!!!", which totally freaked me out and I ran downstairs to turn on the TV and watched in utter disbelief as the events of 9/11 unfolded. It was absolutely unreal, watching planes crash into the twin towers, the pentagon, and one crashing in Pennsylvania... I was glued to the TV the whole day...calling people and finding out if my friends out in the NYC were okay. One of them worked accross the street and didn't go to work that day(funny how that happens) and one was in the air en route back to NYC...her flight was grounded somewhere in Texas(I think) and it took her a few days to get home....hard to imagine that we'd experience such an event as this in our lifetime. It's not about world wars and vietnam anymore, it's about the war on terror...and I don't think it'll ever end.

Me and beeb went to visit Mina and Danny this weekend. I think it's the first time I've been to vegas and didn't gamble a lick... All we did was play games, and eat and veg out around their house...it was great. Too bad they live so far away...we always have a good time hanging out w/ them.

Oh yeah! Good news...Hawaiian Airlines found my luggage! I can't believe it...and I'm so releived...but I still have to go through the entire process of trying to get paid back for the suits that I had to buy while my luggage was gone. One lady told me that they are gonna ask for the suits back, which totally sucks cuz wtf are THEY gonna do with it...but hey, at this point, I don't care...that's 800 bucks back.

Happy Belated Birthdays to Janelle and Kay A!!!!! WOOOHOOOOO!!! Yer OLD!!!!

I am one of life's many valleys...

(standing at his desk while on the phone) Look, I'm looking at the WENUS and I'm not happy! You will care, cuz I care! ....woah....

Lately, I've been in one of those periods of life when things are just blah...basically, things have been kinda shitty lately. Not like major things in life...like my family, wedding plans, etc...for those things, I am still very blessed and very lucky. But it's the other things, the smaller things...and yes, of course to put it in perspective, things could always be a lot worse...heck, we're not supposed to sweat the small stuff, right? But at this point in my life, these are all factors that are contributing to my overall "ngeh-ness." It's not like it's ruining my life...it just affects my mood and overall energy I guess. This is gonna be long-winded...so I'll break it up, in case you just want to skip some topics, he he he...

luggage fiasco
I'm still dealing w/ the whole lost luggage scenario...I have now received the "official" lost claim and there is going to be ANOTHER 30 day period for them to conduct ANOTHER baggage trace. I have already submitted an itemized list(of which I forgot to add 2 items) with everything I had in the luggage. So on the official form, I find out that any items over $100 in value, I HAVE to have the proof of purchase for...4 of those items; 2 suits, 1 pair of dress shoes, and a camelback, were over 100 and I most likely will NOT have a receipt for those items. If I do NOT have the receipt for a lost item over $100, they can only reimburse me the max of $100. For the bag and the shoes, I think that'll be ok, because they were close to 100. It's the suits that have me worried. If I don't have a receipt for those suckers...I'm basically losing out on about 2-3 hundred PER suit. Frickin sucks...

phone
My phone broke last week. 1 month past it's warranty and 7 months before I'm elegible for upgrade. And it broke to the point where I cannot retrieve the information from the flashdrive...which sucks MAJOR balls...cuz I lost all my info. And there was more info on there than could fit on the simcard, plus you can't assign ringtones to simcard numbers...so I never saved them...I know, my bad...but still. In the past, my phone has broken in ways where the drive was still accessible. And I could move it to sim if I had to. But now I can't. Luckily, my coworker Jem let me use her bf's old phone, and I'm slowly getting my info back...

work
Work is...well...it's work. I've been extremely busy and often feel like I don't have much help. Trying to find a soln to my resource issues...

Time
There just hasn't been enough time to do everything I want to do lately...all these meetings and me staying later at work and even working at night has kept me from working out regularly. I think that has definitely affected my mood as of late. I hate that the first thing to go when one's schedule goes out of whack is health and fitness...we don't eat and don't workout because we are so busy. Those are pretty important things and should be treated the same way...

So yeah, I've just had that "things get darkest before dawn..." feeling lately. Dawn...please hurry, ha ha ha.

Lesson of the day
Drive carefully. It's not only cars that can be recalled by their Maker.

I am a shot of espresso

I can't believe i'm still awake...I can't believe Team USA let us down...AGAIN. It's freakin ridiculous how little pride we take in international competitions...yet we claim we're the best in the world... And of course, I know greece was a great team, they're in the semi's for a reason...but that's what happens when you think raw talent can overpower teamwork...it's a TEAM game. Puh - the - tick......I can't believe I stayed up for this shit...